evan @evan@skull.website

Increasingly I am dreaming about changing these institutions. The future we could have as a culture fills my thoughts. it is my one source of hope for us. but increasingly i fear that there's no way to ignore Zionism or build power outside of it. and I don't think too many people bite that bullet without ending up dead inside

I do think you're soaking in propaganda all the time living in a nation like America, and especially being educated at an American institution. the difference is that you can maneuver to some extent around that propaganda, or maybe you'll find a couple of classic cool professors along the way who help open your eyes. No such professor would be able to penetrate a Jewish grad school program, by the simple fact that they would get weeded out

Look around. look at, like, jewish grad school programs. A lot of them have israel trips as a degree requirement. Essentially, they will not let you attain a high status within a community organization without first absorbing a sufficient amount of propaganda

Standing on a grassy hillock waiting for my moment

oh fuck! my airpods fell out of my ears and tumbled all the way to the bottom of the hillock

It’s sad that the people in history classes are elderly. like the younger generation doesn’t care. anyway I am resisting the urge to ask this very sweet octogenarian couple why they’re alive when I thought they went down together with the Titanic

I feel like I’m a few conversations away from steering my life down a different path. if I want to change anything about this community, if I want to do anything I say i do when I write, I need to start somewhere and I feel like everything is lining up. sorry if this doesn’t make a whole lot of sense. i want to talk to someone but no one down here would even get it

now i gotta sit through classes until 2Pm while i wait to take that bad boy home and calibrate the display settings